Life After You
Even though it hurts, believe me you can get through it.
6 months ago it happened for the second time in my life, the first time I experienced it, I was still too young to understand everything, even so, the feeling of hurt and disappointment remained.
Life after breaking up is indeed painful, it feels like being stabbed by a very sharp object, empty, hollow and suddenly we only focus on the pain we experience, without knowing how to treat it, the only thing we can do is cry.
The second time I experienced it, the pain was so different from anything I’d ever experienced before. I felt like a failure, like I’d never learned from my mistakes. It was heartbreaking to remember that we’d been separated. It was a different kind of pain to stare at comfort and familiarity right in front of me and decide to walk in the opposite direction not because I wanted to, but because I needed to.
1 to 3 months after my second breakup, I felt like I didn’t want to leave that place. For some reason, I kept revisiting memories that no longer held any happiness. I kept listening to the music he once sang, walking along the places I’d been. Unknowingly, this actually made me sadder because I kept remembering things I could never do again.
until I got the news that he had liked another woman, it can’t be denied, it would be a lie if I said I was fine. on one hand I was very sad I felt unworthy of love, I felt disappointed, but on the other hand I also realized that this was over, and he could choose the best partner for himself.
After that devastating point, after I knew that I was truly no longer wanted by him, little by little I felt like moving away from that place. Over time I began to look in the mirror and see myself, I felt guilty towards myself. I let him dwell on the pain that I never gave him medicine for, I let him lose himself just because of a man. I have to apologize to myself.
I will love myself and let it grow much better
choosing to be a better me in a world that expects me to be anything else is one of the right things i could have done. i hate the idea of leaving with everything i have but i hate the idea of not fully realizing my dreams even more.
A home we’d been building for a long time, but it was clear we both had different plans. So, when I finally felt brave enough to leave the now-cracked house alone, it was already cold outside. The moments of life that come from having everything you’ve ever wanted make the discomfort, sadness, and hardship that came before it all worth it.
Life goes the same way.
You can’t ask for rain and then hold out a cracked cup.
You can’t ask for peace while feeding your soul with chaos.
You can’t ask for healing and then refuse to let go of the wound.
I am very grateful because I have gone through all of this through things that have taught me so many valuable lessons. I am very grateful because now I have made peace with everything.
and now I always find beauty in every pain I feel
The most important thing is to believe in yourself that whatever happens in your life will all pass through you. If you’re sad, you have to believe that it will definitely end, and if you’re happy, you also have to remember that happiness will not last forever.
This is just a world, you don’t need to worry too much about it. So prepare for eternal life forever.
This is just a world, you don’t need to worry too much about it. So prepare for eternal life forever.
Your life is still long. Your life will continue even without that person.
with love
nazwa.